I find myself making the wrong choice of being in business course and being in marketing option.
Especially when I have to crack my brain when doing marketing stuff during ITP and the releasing of results, which is deproving after the 1st year.
I am not happy being in this course and option at all, mainly because I am not interested in marketing at all and my personality don't match me well with marketing.
Trying to change my personality as well but I think that is not the real me and I am not happy with it.
Sometimes I find myself really useless, what can I really do when I am good at nothing?
Many circumstances just make me feel so depressed Haiz.
If some problems can be solved, how good can it be?

Have recently kept in touch with ff, who does very well in her A level.
She's somehow in the same situation as me, that is why she can understand my situation well.
Happy that she plans to further her studies in Uni and has plans for her future already.
But what's me? Don't think I have the ability to even further my studies..
and how can I accomplish my mum's wish when she is pinning all her hope on me to be the "breadwinner" in the family?
How about my future goal to open my own business, like cafe when I do not have the capability and resources to do so?

I know I have been thinking too much, but these are some of the things that have been bugging me.
I wish that I can be as happy as before. But situations don't make me so.


Sometimes I really detest this kind of life. Life just sucks.